Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Doodles: Christmas Spirit

I was perusing through the store yesterday looking for a fun craft for the kids I teach religion class to on Tuesday evenings. I ended up finding some beautiful stickers for the kids so they could make Christmas cards, but I also found a sketchpad that seemed like the perfect size for my own use. I had originally wanted to stop by Barnes & Noble or Micheal's to find something sturdy and "artsy", but when I saw a kids Crayola sketchpad, I thought, why not? It has spiral bounding, which I like and at three bucks I don't feel the pressure of having to make every sketch perfect. I can be pretty self-conscious when it comes to art and design at times. Because I'm an avid blog reader, I often read graphic design blogs of people who are so creative and can produce such beautiful artwork. It's inspirational and impeding at the same time. You should see the scores of crumpled paper I have laying around me sometimes because my sketches never turn out the way I see other people's do.

Ink pens for doodling

For the first time in a long while I was able to sketch and not stop at every wrong stroke I thought I made. I just kept going, and in the end, I didn't mind what I had. It's no secret for designers that the importance of sketching cannot be understated. I still remember being in college and having to draw 50 sketches of an apple and a banana. At the time I couldn't understand why I would waste my time doing such a thing, and I thought the assignment was boring. But it's true, sketching really does allow you to slow down, pinpoint what you want to create and most importantly take note of the fine details that can go unnoticed but are essential in making up what we see and feel. It can be a tough concept to grasp, and there are times in my professional work when I still immediately go to the computer to start a project, but the payoff of sketching is often worth it.

Christmas Doodles

Abstract Christmas Tree

It can be liberating to sketch for fun. A chance to get away from all of the digital tools that surround us everyday and put pen to paper and see what may come. I should also note that to this day, my aptitude for drawing apples and bananas is pretty darn good.

Joy to the World

Monday, December 12, 2011

Remnants Of A Winter Rain

We woke up today to the pitter, patter of rain on our windows. It felt like it should still be the weekend, and the mix of rain and the fact that Aliyah slept in later today, made me want to crawl back under the covers. Instead, we got up, began our week and took time this afternoon to capture these photos and enjoy the cozy feeling that a winter rain creates.

Rainfall in Arizona

Rainfall in Arizona Rainfall in Arizona


Rainfall in Arizona

Rainfall in Arizona

Friday, December 9, 2011

Farm Girl

In August, Aliyah received this cute farm tractor and trailer from our good friends, Rene, Nancy & Maya. Since we don't live near either of her grandparents, I am determined to make sure she appreciates and is aware of her history on both sides of the family. Having farm toys around is one way that we can connect with what Grandpa and Grandma Peters do back in Minnesota. To my delight, she loves her tractor set and plays with it often.

I think she makes a cute farmer, don't you?

Following in Grandpa Peters footsteps.

Next time we're in Minnesota, Grandpa may have to put her to work.

Our sweet little farmer girl.


Her livestock.

Who says a cow can't drive a tractor?

Who says a cow can't drive a tractor?


Carden Family Fun List: Winter Edition

Let me preface this list with letting you know that I am aware that there are no snowmen in Phoenix, and that they certainly aren't hanging out with cacti. It just so happened that when I drew that graphic I decided a snowman would a.) be easy to draw and b.) a cactus would too.

I realize this list is ambitious, but we have three months to achieve them and I think it's do-able. Many of them are centered around the Christmas holiday, so that makes it easier. And to give our family a jump start I made sure to list "Celebrate St. Nikolas Day", which was on the 6th. Mark one off the list!

So in no particular order of importance, I give you the:





Thursday, December 8, 2011

Digital Sketchbook: Peace on Earth



I heard the bells on Christmas Day
Their old, familiar carols play,
And wild and sweet
The words repeat
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!

And thought how, as the day had come,
The belfries of all Christendom
Had rolled along
The unbroken song
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!

Till, ringing, singing on its way,
The world revolved from night to day,
A voice, a chime,
A chant sublime
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!

Then from each black, accursed mouth
The cannon thundered in the South,
And with the sound
The carols drowned
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!

It was as if an earthquake rent
The hearth-stones of a continent,
And made forlorn
The households born
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!

And in despair I bowed my head;
"There is no peace on earth," I said:
"For hate is strong,
And mocks the song
Of peace on earth, good-will to men!"

Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:
"God is not dead; nor doth he sleep!
The Wrong shall fail,
The Right prevail,
With peace on earth, good-will to men!


- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow


I recently saw this showcased here. If you get a chance, watch this live version by Casting Crowns. It's the song that really got me into the Christmas spirit. (I'm pretty much in love with any song that has a good choir in the background.) 

Monday, December 5, 2011

Come again?


Um, what's that you said Mr. Weatherman? No, no...I'm sorry, you must be wrong. I thought I moved to Arizona.You know, one of the southernmost states in the U.S? What you are showing me can't possibly be correct, because truth be told, I was sort of envisioning a 70 degree December.


Oh...I guess you're right. I am new here. I should just put on an extra few layers and embrace the chilly weather as I'm sure that my fellow family and friends up North may be just slightly cooler. Just a little bit.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Friday 5 {Weekly Gratitude List}


  1. Holiday Decorating: Having guests gave me the motivation to take down all of the fall decorations and put up our Christmas decor. I love how festive it looks right now at our place. All we need to do is get a tree. I'm looking forward to Aliyah's holiday experience and creating some family traditions now that she's older and can really get into it. 
  2. Our First Arizona Guests: Aunt Bri and Emeca couldn't stay away from Aliyah for long. We were surprised to find out earlier this week that they were heading our way on a last-minute business venture. Our first guests! They're here until Saturday morning and we are enjoying their company. 
  3. Birthday Wishes: I turned 29 on Monday. Sebastian was so good to me and made sure I felt special all weekend and Monday. I received cards from my mom, my brother and his family, Aliyah and the cats (Sebastian may have helped.) All in all it was a pretty sweet day. Now I need to start thinking about what to put on my "Thirty before 30" list. One more year!
  4. An Underbooked Flight: On the way home from our Georgia Thankgiving we had a red-eye flight back to Arizona. I dreaded the thought of having a crabby, confined 1-year old on a plane in the middle of the night. I said a whole-hearted thank you prayer to God as we lifted off for giving us an empty seat in our row. It was amaaaaazing. Aliyah still only got about an hour of sleep on the plane, but at least the hours she was awake she was able to stretch her legs. 
  5. Baked Potato Pizza: I seem to post a lot of food here, but I couldn't resist. This pizza is absolutely delicious. I don't really consider myself an outstanding cook, but I may need to post this recipe so everyone can experience the joy that is Baked Potato Pizza. 

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Aliyah and her PawPaw

We had a fantastic Thanksgiving this year at Oma and PawPaw's house in Georgia. Delicious food, sweet company and lots and lots of fun. More photos and details to come. For now, here's a photo of Aliyah and her beloved PawPaw spending some quality time together.



Aliyah and her PawPaw

Friday, November 18, 2011

Friday 5 {Weekly Gratitude List}



  1. Wine & TV: I got this idea off of Pinterest to save the cork from each bottle of wine you drink, then date it and write what you were doing when you drank it. Last night, we had a “Revenge-a-thon”. Yes, Sebastian and have somehow gotten sucked into the show “Revenge”. Yes, we are blushing. Does it help that it’s based on “The Count of Monte Cristo”? No? Okay, then we’ll just call it our guilty pleasure.
  2. The Medicine Man: Also known as: Daddy. Aliyah is on antibiotics and she will not willingly take it for me. I’m supposed to give her a tsp and half of this stuff, twice a day. See that dropper? That’s half a tsp. Last night, I decided to let Sebastian try...and wouldn’t you know it, she took it like it was no big deal. Thanks hubby...you’ve just received a new job.
  3. Kitty Love: This little guy has a daily routine. It consists of sleeping most of the day, then hiding from Aliyah when she gets home, and finally coming back out to lay in my lap while I relax for the evening. I think he’s pretty cute.
  4. Loose Leaf Tea: I stepped inside Bunna Coffee this on Wednesday to satiate my once-every-few-weeks-I-think-I-need-a-caramel-macchiato cofee craving (read: pure sugar). As I was leaving, I noticed they sell loose leaf tea by the ounce. I love finding hidden treasures like this place.This week I bought some Oolong Plum Tea. Delicious. Can’t wait to go back after this bag is done and take home another flavor. 
  5. Stuffed Bell Peppers: I decided to try my hand at cooking something new this week, thinking that with my cooking skills it might be hit or miss. They were delicious! I didn’t even know l liked stuffed peppers until I ate these. You can find the (super easy) recipe here. I substituted vegetarian chorizo (or “soyrizo” as the package states), only because Sebastian wanted to eat two vegetarian meals this week. (Dad, if you’re reading this, look the other way. We’ll eat pork this weekend, okay?)



Digital Sketchbook

I've been reading a lot of design blogs lately and it has inspired me to get back into designing for fun, not just for work. It's nice to be able to create something with no restrictions, no limitations and no expectations and seeing what comes of it in the end.


I've also created a printable, card version.



All you need to do is download the link here*, fold your piece of paper just like you did in grade school and viola. You're one step closer to brightening someone's day. Because really, who doesn't love to get snail mail? I know I do!

*Just a hint about the download--you'll be directed to a site called Ge.tt, which is just a free, snazzy google app for sharing files. No need to install anything, the PDF should load in a few seconds and give you the option to download to your computer. Enjoy!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

What Do I Want My Blog To Be?

I want my blog to be inspiring, in its own unique way. 
I want this blog to force me to put things out there in the world and accomplish them, rather than keeping them to myself and wishing I did more. 
I want this blog to focus on my successes in life, but also on areas where I want and need to improve. 
And to show that life isn't always a good photo where everything looks perfect, but that it's the imperfect parts in between that really make it up. And that that's a beautiful thing. That's life.
I want it to encourage Aliyah, as she gets older, to dream and aspire for the future, and look back fondly on childhood. Even the parts she can't remember.
I want it to freeze little moments in time so I never take them for granted.
I want this blog to be clean and easy to navigate, and fun to look at aesthetically. 
I want it to be a digital journal of my design and photography skills so that someday I can look through the archives and see that I really have improved. 
I want it to be a place where I can write about what's bothering me and what I'm happy about, and what I'm grateful for and what I'm feeling at the moment. 
Where I can write about my "life revelations", no matter how silly they might be. 
I want this blog to be honest. 
I want it to enable me to become more outgoing and less self-conscious about who I am and what others think of me. 
I want to have a theme or style to how I write and how I present my photos, graphics and designs. 
I want to find my voice and not feel so awkward at moments when I write a post and wonder who I'm writing it for and why I'm writing it and if I'm trying to be too funny or too sweet or too philosophical. 
I want this blog to ultimately be for my family. Myself included, but also for grandparents, aunts and uncles who live across the country, so they can feel that they are even more connected to Aliyah's and our everyday life.  
I want this blog to inspire me so that I can become more aware, more present and to fully enjoy this wonderful, beautiful life that God has given me. 

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

She's Happy Even When She's Sick

Aliyah has been fighting the sniffles on and off ever since we've arrived in Arizona. Yesterday, I took her to her 15th month, well-baby appointment (the first visit with our new, Arizona pediatrician), and she had to receive four shots. Poor kid. She wailed after it happened, but seemed good to go afterwards when I dropped her off at her daycare. When I arrived to pick her up, it was an entirely different story. She was dressed in an over sized t-shirt because she had soiled her clothes, her eyes were red and puffy and she was so sad when she hugged me.

And so today I was able to stay home with Aliyah  and give her some extra TLC. Only once have Aliyah's happy spirits changed as a result of being sick, otherwise she can have a fever, a runny nose and puffy eyes and she'll still be laughing and giggling. Today was no different and come late-morning I wondered if maybe I should have just let her go to daycare as she seemed to be doing much better. I'm glad I stuck with my instincts to keep her home, considering she she took a nap from 11:30am until 3:15 this afternoon. And tonight she was ready to go to bed by 7:30. So she is definitely feeling a bit under the weather. While I hate to see my baby girl not feeling up to par, I'll gladly take the time spent with her any day.



Monday, November 14, 2011

Notes from Daycare

Every so often, I get handwritten notes from Aliyah's daycare that tell me of something unique that Aliyah did that day. In early October, I traveled back to San Jose for a week for work. Perhaps the daycare providers sensed that I needed a little extra information since I was missing my girl because Sebastian called with two adorable notes about Aliyah.

The first one appeared on 10.19.2011
"Aliyah was so sweet to her friends today. She was sharing, hugging and helping them. One of her friends laid down on the pillow and she patted his back and put him to sleep."

The second note appeared the following day on 10.20.11
"Aliyah was dragging the drum behind her everywhere she went today. She would stop, sit down, then pick the drum up and off she'd go. I guess it was her way of putting on a concert for all of her friends. (One friend at a time.)"
These gave me such happiness when Sebastian read them to me aloud over the phone. It surely made the week away go by much more quickly.


Sunday, November 13, 2011

25 Things

Remember the facebook craze of 25 things? I was on a digital cleaning kick and was trashing some of my older files, when I stumbled upon one that I did a few years back but never had the courage to actually post on facebook. Since that one is a bit outdated, I decided to try my hand at another one...and actually publish it this time. Here goes....

25 Things About Me:
1.)    While I can muddle my way through a Spanish conversation if necessary, I still am not fluent. One day I hope to be if only to become more connected to where I was born and the traditions that surround it.
2.)    I’ve never been back to my birth country of Guatemala, but it is something I would like to do in the next five years.
3.)    Aliyah is one-half Guatemalan, one-quarter German and one-quarter black. One of my big hopes/goals for Aliyah’s education is to enroll her in a Spanish immersion school so that she is fluent in Spanish. I would also like her to be immersed in German so that she experiences all parts of her heritage.
4.)    I loved living in California and am so glad I was able to be there for five years. Living in California made me much less naive. Most times my experiences there left me more open-minded about things, but sometimes they also left me a bit apprehensive and cynical about what is truth and what is not and whether is it possible to distinguish the two confidently. I sometimes think I would like things to be either right or wrong, but I know that this isn't really how the world works...and for good reason.
5.)    I have a sentimental attachment to green corn and bean fields and green grass. 
6.)    When I first met Sebastian, as instructors/Assistant Directors at a summer camp, I thought he was just another over-confident guy and I had no interest at all. Three seasons later, my mind was changed forever.
8.)    I wish I talked to and saw my brother and sister-in-law more often. They are two of the nicest people I know.
9.)    I have the cutest nieces in the world. They will melt your heart in less than 15 minutes after meeting them. This, I can guarantee.  
10.) I have such deep respect, admiration and love for my parents both in business and family life. I know I can go to them for anything and they will provide me with insight and guidance. I’m extremely grateful for this.
11.) My dad always joked that I needed to marry someone who knew how to cook. Lucky for me, Sebastian is phenomenal at this task.
12.) Sebastian also loves to do laundry. How cool is that?!
13.) One day, I’d like to start and run a chartable event or organization that makes a difference in this world. I am completely aware that this is a monumental task, which is also what makes this aspiration quite daunting.
14.) I’ve come to admit that I am somewhat messy. I am absolutely bewildered at my Mom’s ability to keep a clean house ALL the time. I think I try to hide my semi-messiness by cleaning every weekend, but really, my cleaning habit is more of a way to get rid of all the germs I don’t like.
15.) I love foreign films. I think there is something beautiful in listening to a language you don’t speak fluently.
16.) I fly quite frequently, but each time the plane lifts off the ground and each time it lands, I am always amazed at how a huge chunk of metal can fly. In the air. At such a speed. It’s pretty amazing.  
17.) I love being a designer. But I love being a Mom even more.
18.) My super power is the ability to sleep. If I put my mind to it, I can sleep almost anywhere in less than 10 minutes. I also have very vivid dreams when I sleep.
19.) As I get older, I think my attention span becomes shorter. I also believe that technology breeds this attribute.
20.) Whenever I come back home to Minnesota, one of my favorite things to do is watch late-night tv re-runs with my Dad. It’s father-daughter bonding at its best.
21.) My Mom is one of my best friends. She is also one of the kindest people I know. I hope that as I get older, I can become more and more like her.
22.) The older I get, the more difficult I realize it is to make best friends. I miss my good friends in California and I miss my good friends in Minnesota a lot these days. There is something very special in having a friend whom you can call at anytime to talk or to hang out with and have no reservations in doing so.
23.) I never, in my wildest dreams thought I would like living in Arizona, but I do. It’s actually a pretty nice place to be.
24.) It’s true what they say. A good marriage takes work. I used to think a good marriage meant living in complete bliss all the time. But Sebastian and I fight passionately. We also love passionately and we know we’re both committed to one another forever. Agreeing on that is exactly what I always wanted in a husband.
25.) I’m addicted to HGTV and Pinterest. They consume way too much of my time these days. 


Tuesday, November 8, 2011

It's beginning to feel a lot like...fall

The temps in Arizona have dipped to a crisp, fall-like temperature this past week. I've celebrated by finally completing my Thanksgiving decorating, drinking lots of tea and baking muffins.

These are organic, cinnamon apple muffins just from a box, but they are delicious. Bought for Aliyah for breakfast, it seems she may have to eat these quickly, or they'll be gone. I've already had three. And I just baked them 20 minutes ago.



Being that this is our first time experiencing Arizona's seasons, I have no idea if this weather is typical or unusually cool, but I will welcome the slight change of seasons any way I can get. The best part, in my opinion? Enjoying the cool, autumn temps, while knowing that I don't have to anticipate freezing temperatures for the next four months. :)

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Happy Birthday Bastian!

Happy 29th birthday to the one of the most amazing men I know. This guy is a beautiful, sweet and caring husband, a phenomenal Daddy to Aliyah, and a true and dear friend to many people around the world. Here's to another year of great memories and becoming a little bit wiser, Sebastian. Your family loves you!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Singh Farms

I was perusing around yelp a few nights ago to find a good farmers markets in Tempe or the surrounding area and stumbled upon Singh Farms. It had phenomenal reviews, (check them out for yourself here) and decided to ask Sebastian if he wanted to go. Sebastian is all in for anything thing with a good yelp review. (Perhaps because he works for the company? Yes, probably.) So I had no trouble convincing him.

Like any place new, we weren't sure what to expect, but once we turned into the driveway, we immediately felt like we were transported to someplace other than Arizona. It had this quaint garden/farm feel, with lush trees and moist, black dirt--just like something out of a Steinbeck novel. From the little I read about this place, a guy started it on his own and the entire property is made of compost, which is why they are able to grow so many hearty veggies. 

We were a little unsure of what to do first, since most of the things I read said it was a Farmer's Market, but really, it's a vegetable farm that you can walk through on paths. We explored a bit on the trails and Aliyah approved. She pretty much approves any activity if it includes being outside. I love that she is so happy to be outdoors. I hope she keeps that mentality for the rest of her life. 



Aliyah had fun capturing the attention of each passerby that she could make eye contact with, as well as chasing Sebastian around the soft, dirt paths. Yup, just like a Steinbeck novel. Minus all that depression era and heavy decision making theme stuff.



If you know Aliyah, then you know that she has these moments of utter independence. In those moments she knows what she wants (well, I she thinks she know what she wants), and like most parents of a toddler, if I can, I ride it out if it doesn't coincide with what I want.



And then there are moments like this, where she takes my hand and all her mannerisms show me that she knows the comfort and safety that Sebastian and I provide her every day. 



These moments, are by far some of the best. 

After we walked the paths, we made our way back to the little lodge that held the produce and baked goods. Sebastian found some herbs to cook with, we grabbed some honey and bought a bag of the sweetest apples I've tasted in a long time. They reminded me of my Grandpa & Grandma Kramer's apple tree outside of their house in Adrian, Minnesota. 

Aliyah bit into the apple with no reservation and loved it. This girl loves a good piece of fruit, and this Momma is glad. So far, she's been an easy child to feed healthy food to, with her favorite foods being mostly fruits. Now if only I can keep this going as she gets older. Not likely (how can I expect her to eat this healthy for the rest of her life when I don't eat nearly as well as I should). But for now, I relish in seeing her little hands hold her prize, and the delight on her face when she bites into something sweet and nutritious. 



All in all it was a fun little trip and we're excited to go back soon and see what other seasonal surprises we can find. 

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Traces of Aliyah

Aliyah is at the sweet, new age now where she's able to entertain herself for a few minutes at a time. This is an enormous help to Mom and Dad, since it allows us to get chores done around the house --albeit quickly. And every so often, Aliyah lets us know that she's made an appearance in certain places during the day. Today, among the carrots, beets and leftover dinner in the fridge, I found these...and had to smile.


Saturday, October 1, 2011

Breathtaking Sedona Day Trip

I remember growing up in Minnesota and having this sense of wonder and awe during the summer months. I loved the green corn fields and the lush landscape. I loved laying in the grass in our backyard at dusk and soaking it all in. I have my Dad to thank for this appreciation of the the earth, specifically the Minnesota farmland. His passion for agriculture is something I admire and I often sought to love the land as much as he did. Interestingly enough, no matter how beautiful the scenery was in California, and trust me, there are some breathtaking sights there, in the five years I lived there I could never get that complete feeling of wonder and awe back the way I did in Minnesota. I sometimes wondered if I was becoming stagnant in my ability to see the beauty around me, and this is something that bothered me from time to time.

Today, as we approached Sedona, I got that feeling back fully and it was wonderful. The beauty there is amazing. Gorgeous. Breathtaking. Awe inspiring.

October 2011  |  Sedona, Arizona Day Trip

Sebastian and I agreed. Today was pretty much perfect.

Since we were just going for the day and we had a toddler in tow, we decided to go up and explore with no set plans. I think at times that's the best way to explore an area. The day's activities started out promising. We saw signs for an Oktober Fest. Free to the Community! We thought, why not? A glass of beer, maybe some brats for lunch. Let's kick off this trip with some goodies.

We followed about three homemade signs, which probably should have been our first clue that something was amiss. We then missed the actual sign for the entrance and were out in the Arizona wilderness (okay not really). Perfect opportunity for Aliyah to stretch her legs and for Mom and Dad to get some photos.

Sedona Day Trip

We finally made it to destination Oktoberfest. And made a loop and were on our way again. Why, the short appearance, you ask? It might have been the fact that the main demographic included the over seventy crowd. Or it may have been the one (and only), oddly placed science fair board, with just a couple of lone-kids manning it. But the final clue that maybe this Oktoberfest was something different than we had envisioned was the sign outside the entrance.

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I'm sure it was a nice event, just not exactly what we were envisioning. And so we were on our way again. No biggie. That's the best part of not having plans. When something doesn't work out it, it's not that big of a deal because it wasn't even on the schedule to begin with.

With that mini-adventure behind us, we drove through town and found a place to park and eat our picnic lunch that Sebastian so sweetly packed for us. As we ate, we agreed that we need to eat more picnic lunches. (Good thing there were no brats at our first stop, right?) Every time we do we love it. I'm also pretty sure that we eat much healthier and save a lot more money, than when we go out to on the weekends. Plus, Aliyah loves to be outside and she loves to eat. So she is basically in heaven when we have picnic lunches.

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After lunch we let our little explorer loose and she was all smiles. Rocks to throw, bushes to swat at, dirt to fall down in and people's attention to grab. Oh and did I mentioned my nerves to fry? If I could put this girl in a metal suite of armor, I think I might. She's right in that phase of toddlerhood where she wants to walk everywhere and is pretty good at it, but still hasn't grasped the concept of realizing that ground is a tricky surface to tackle sometimes. The path was like any good hiking trail: uneven and rocky. So for the first few meters I was basically making a circle around her just in case she fell. (I can totally admit that I have first-time mom written all over me.)

Eventually the path evened out a bit and I could instead concentrate on taking photos that make my heart melt like this one.

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That's a keeper, for sure.

We didn't walk too far on the trail. Just enough to get Aliyah's cheeks red and our feet dirty since both Sebastian and I wore flip flops. I'm excited to go back with the intention of actually hiking , maybe even buying Aliyah one of those hiking carriers, and going much farther in.

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After our mini-walk, we got a bit of rest and breeze in the visitors shelter, where we also discovered Aliyah's modeling skills. Or rather, her ability to stare people down, with the breeze conveniently blowing through her locks to make her look like she was trying to model.

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Next we hopped into the car and made our way to the Chapel of the Holy Cross. Wow. The views were absolutely stunning. Another breathtaking moment. Two in one day. Arizona you are growing on me sooner than I expected.

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We drove home and Sebastian, in all his trivial knowledge, let me know that a sea of clouds miles ahead of us on the road were rain clouds and that the streaks coming down that looked like fog, were in fact, rain. I disagreed, but figured he might be on to something when I saw this...

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It was ca-razy. Loads of rain pouring down. So much that we actually pulled off to the side of the road, along with a few other cars. It didn't last long, and we were back on the road shortly. Alright, Sebastian, I'll admit it now. You were right. :)

Aliyah did wonderful the entire trip. Understandably, she sometimes gets fussy being confined to the carseat, but she was completely content babbling to her stuffed elephant and "reading" books. I always know when she's had a fun time because for the next few hours she is in this completely content stage. As a mother, it's a great feeling to know she's happy.

We had such a good time that when we got back we decided to go to a park and let Aliyah run around a bit. A perfect end to the evening. Sebastian got to kick the soccer ball around, Aliyah got to run around, and I got to sit in the grass once again in awe of my surroundings and my beautiful little family. Maybe Arizona won't be so bad after all.

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Friday, September 30, 2011

Weekly Gratitude List

In no particular order....five things I'm grateful for this week are: 
  1. Finding inspiring quotes and decor on Pinterest. Um, yup, call me officially addicted. See my boards here
  2. Picking up Aliyah every afternoon from daycare. Seeing her excitement every day when I walk through the door is priceless. Completely in love with that daughter of mine.
  3. Watching tv shows with Sebastian. Raising Hope, Modern Family, Community, Happy Endings, Dexter and Mad Men are on our must-see list each week. (Random side note: Damon Wayans Jr. is my new tv crush.)
  4. New Tires. If you could only see how bad the tread was on my left back tire. The back two are replaced now and even though I really can't tell or see them, it still gives me peace of mind.
  5. Writing Bastian daily notes on why I love him. I sometimes feel as if I take for granted the people I live with and love every day. So I decided that every night for a year I would write Sebastian a note on what makes him exceptional. It's a great little exercise for me and he's mentioned a few times now that it's a nice start to his day.

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Thursday, September 29, 2011

Reflections on California

It's hard to believe that we've been living in Arizona for over a month and a half. I only realized how long we've been here just now as I looked at my calendar to check the dates for this post. There are days when it seems like we just moved here yesterday. Some days I go about my normal activities and nothing seems to have changed all that much. And then there are other days when I try to push aside the fact that I'm living in Arizona permanently, and I somehow convince myself that this is just some long vacation. That we'll be back to the West Coast, and the second time around, I will appreciate everything just a bit more.I agree, it makes no sense, but my sentiments tend push rational to the wayside.

In reality, we may never go back, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. Arizona is nice and in time, I sure that I will be able to call it home with satisfaction and happiness. But for now, I'm stuck with a case of "the grass is greener" syndrome. You know the one where you never really appreciated what you had until it was gone? And the one where you forget all the things you complained about the moment you left? Ahhh, California. Land of beautiful coastlines and wineries. A place where almost every summer day is sunny, and where it rains just enough in the winter to make you think you experienced some cold weather. (Hardly.) Where diversity is everywhere you look and the sushi and Mexican food is divine. Where you feel special when you tell people you live in California (even whip out that California drivers license for more effect.) Where you're smack dab in middle of popular culture, either fame or tech (why, yes, I'd love to tour the Apple, facebook or Google studios this afternoon). California, where the houses are small and insanely expensive and the gap between the rich and poor is enormous. Where almost every city has some sort of smog alert, and it takes you 25 minutes to go 10 miles in rush hour traffic. Like most experiences in life, there are good and bad, pros and cons.

But there are other reasons why I feel a connection to California. It was where I had some of the best summers of my life working as a camp counselor, forming life-long bonds with some amazing people across the world.



It's where I eventually got my design career started after college and where I spent a year having two of the best roommates a girl could ask for in life.



It's where I met a boy, became engaged and got married to him. And spent a weekend in bliss among family and friends. A day in California I'll never forget and always keep close to my heart because of the people who flew out to celebrate with us.



California is where we found out we were pregnant three months after we were married and eight months later, this beautiful girl came into our lives.



Countless memories were made in that state. And so I here I am, in Arizona, only thinking about the perfect parts of California.Yet, I'm pretty sure one of the underlying reasons for my nostalgia (other than the points mentioned above) isn't necessarily because I loved California so much, though I did like it a lot. (And I mean a lot.) In fact, when I did live there, I often ached to move back to Minnesota. (See, "the grass is always greener" syndrome.) I long for California because I very much dislike change. I've learned that I can adapt to my surroundings eventually, which is reassuring. It means that one day I'll feel at home in Arizona. What is difficult for me is to adapt quickly. I tend to hold on to things and concentrate on the good feelings of the past.The fact that I appreciate these things afterwards isn't a bad thing, it's the fact that it inhibits my ability to appreciate what's happening here. Now. In the present. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm ungrateful (at least I don't think I am), but I have the opportunity to relish in the memories I'm making while they are actually happening. Wouldn't my memories be all that more sweet if I not only was able to look back on them fondly, but  if I could experience them to the fullest as well?

Funny I should mention that, because I it just so happens that I have the perfect opportunity to do that here, during one of the biggest changes of my life, and my family's life. So Arizona, get ready. Because sooner, rather than later, I am going to love you. And I am going to love you not only in the past, but in the present too.